I am a very fortunate soul. On this Thanksgiving morning I find that gratitude comes quite easily. That fact alone is something to be grateful for. It is not always that gratitude springs up in me. I have waged a life-long battle with self-pity, so I am prone to be negative sometimes, and feel sorry for myself. But I have learned in the past few years that this self-pity arises from an anxiety that lives deep in me; that I should be somewhere I am not, doing something that I am not doing.
"My family should be to this mile-marker by now."
"My church should have become thus-and-such by now."
"I should have accomplished these goals."
More recently I find myself enjoying the journey a lot more than I have in the past. I like where I am right now. There is still a good deal of "holy discontent" that boils in my belly, but I am really happy with my life and who I spend my days with. So, on that note, a few things I am very readily grateful for today:
Zoe & Sophie, my daughters - of course I would say this, but I am so happy with their growth and they way I seem them turn toward God and goodness. I see small evidences that they sense the beauty of the world they inhabit and that makes me happy and thankful.
Elysabeth - I've learned so much from her and I cherish the way she keeps me grounded and focused. She is my solid foundation and my motivation to be a better dad and husband.
My congregation - what can I say, I serve the best church in the world (or at least the USA). They give me such freedom to express what God is doing in my life. Together we are cultivating a relational space that is increasingly life-giving to our community and the people who are becoming our friends. I serve God's kingdom with the most talented and beautiful people in the world.
Friends - I have, in the past few months, formed one or two deeper relationships that have been so important to me. These friends (I'm thinking of one in particular) give me the gift of time - taking me away from the fast-paced life I tend to live and slowing me down to a more human rhythm. What a gift!
Books - people who know me know that I live my life in books. I always have a book with me - at all times. I've been on a good run recently and read some amazing books. I'll write more on those books soon.
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The image above is called, "Gratitude," and described by artist, Dosia McKay as "an abstract bouquet of flowers, a heart overflowing with gratitude and joy."
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